G o d .
I have loved Him as long as I can remember. My mother told me all about Him when I was four years old, and on that same day I accepted Him as best I could with my new and naïve mind. When I was eleven, I was baptized at my own will, having a better understanding of how awesome His power in my life really was. Years passed, and my relationship with Him only grew stronger. He has led me through joyous and unbearable times alike, and today He leads me through the darkest, most painful, confusing, sickening time in my small amount of years. Despite all of those adjectives I just used, I am still as madly in love with the Lord as I was in the midst of my happiest days. Nothing, I mean literally nothing, can shake my love and trust in Him, and what I always thought has now been proven to the extreme.
In dedication to this unconditionally loving Heavenly Father, I am posting this picture of a wooden cross that was in my mother's hands at her viewing along with my trusty and much-loved Bible. They both mean a great deal to me, and what/who they represent will always keep me feeling warm, strong, and more loved than ever before.
Dear one... You and Kayla are amazing young women, and the strength of your faith through this difficult time continues to honor your Heavenly Father. He made your heart... and He knows it's broken.
ReplyDeleteYou obviously know that everything that happens is sifted through His fingers, and that it's for His glory and to make us more like Him. For you to comprehend that shows that you are wise beyond your years. I've been watching you and Kayla on fb and praying for you both. From where I sit, I see that you are walking, talking, blogging testimonies, and that your faith is growing exponentially through this tough time. And as a Mother, I can vouch for the fact that nothing honors your Mom (or makes your family more proud) than doing exactly what you are doing. You are relying on God Who is walking (and yes even blogging) with you through this. He knows you're going to have up days and ukky days... but that's OK.
The wound is still deep. Uncle Ed just had a big cut on his leg and had to pack it with gauze every day to allow it to heal from the inside out. That's what you're doing... and you're going to the right source for strength... keep packing it with His love, and you're going to heal from the inside out too.
I hope that you know how much I love you! Always, Aunt Paula
I got tears in my eyes as I read this. Through all of the events in my life--both good and bad--I have trusted in God and found the beauty of His works in even the simplest of things. I'm glad you do, too. The true test of faith is whether you can keep it through difficult times. You're in my prayers :)
ReplyDelete--Marisha